[irishman82]

I just wanted to address the hating point:

Something productive can come out of hating yourself, for as we all know:

All Have Sinned and Fall Short of the Glory of God

Romans 3:23

and also.

Isaiah 64:6 (King James Version)
King James Version (KJV)

6But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.

And we know that we are judged on God's standards not on human ones.

You can hate yourself for being a sinner and because you struggle with what's immoral and moral. but physically harming yourself is foolish, for your body is God's temple and belongs to him.

I guess sometimes we can hate something like our actions because we know we could be better and only God can grant us that, but to let it torment us is another thing, the answer is prayer as always.

Pray so that you will not be tested.