[irishman82]

I thought a lot of what you told me that maybe I should let her go, and I think that's what I might just end up doing... We do nothing but arguing and I feel that I am trying and she keeps raising that bar of expectations, I bring up issues that need to be addressed that she doesn't like to deal with and I don't hear the end of it.

I am not working on the marriage, I am working on myself. I've lost all interest whatsoever on the marriage, I only want to see my daughter more and enjoy her. Right now I only see her 30 minutes every 3 days.

Other than that my life is improving, I do not get upset about things I used to and socially I get a long good with people and when there are tensions I walk away, I figure I could do that in a new relationship in the future, just not in this one since there's always a bitterness in the air.

She recently told me that I caused her to get asphyxiated four years ago and the stress I was putting on her at the time caused it, when I considered we were doing alright at the moment, I brought her to the emergency room after calling her family and trying to figure out what was wrong with her (all this happened when we were sitting down eating food that I cooked so I was wondering for a minute if I did something wrong lol) we get to the emergency room and spend there a good part of the night, she got better and praised me and thanked me for saving her life, her family did the same... now after four years I am the cause of that. She tells me I do not care for my child even though I have never said no to anything that my child needs, furthermore I stick with the program and try not to argue it... it's hard not to see my child as it is.

I am meeting new people through myspace and trying to keep my head busy, things which I am doing through marriage counseling, I was told to meet new people... well when most of these people are women she gets a fit and calls them ****s without knowing them, gives me ultimatums in front of my child that if I cheat on her we're done, I say nothing. But it's ok for her to post pictures of her and her old friends and some seductive pictures after bars in college time.

Yep, I think I can say I pretty much don't give a rat's *** about my marriage, moreover I know that I am probably going to get it big in the financial department but I won't have to deal with her as much and I'll be able to start a new life, and most important see my child more often and see her grow.

I am ready to move on. I started doing wrong, but she would only not let go but get everyone around us involved, she holds grudges and throws things at my face from even four years ago. She says she loves me on the phone in a tone that she expects me to say the same, yet she does not show that love.

My friends I am ready to move on.