I have been pondering this for awhile and thought I would bring it to all of you and see what you think. I honestly do not know what to think about it.
Many of us have spoken about our trials and battles with Depression. I am one of those people.
For years ( at least 13 or 14) I have been told I am Bi-polar, I have OCD , I don't have Bi-polarism but Post traumatic Stress....... whatever the case I know that mentally there is something that is off at times. What I wonder is how much is "normal" and how much isn't.
I agree with some diagnosis being I struggled with Anorexia for 13 years with paranoid anxiety to suicidal and angry all the time...
My question is, Are medications such as Anti-Depressants man made or God inspired?
As others here have recently written about , I too wonder why is my faith not enough? Am I not being faithful? Have I truly given my life to Christ? When I pray for God to control my life and work in me do I mean it?
I believe so, so why do I still feel miserable on the inside?
Is something really chemically messed up that I need medications or do I just need more faith?
Now I understand that this is a scary question for some to answer because we worry if we give biblical answers that someone may forgo needed medicine and injure themselves.....
But what I guess I am really getting at is the need for the meds.
They are so freely given out it makes me wonder how many lean on meds and not God if this is the case then are they God made? I wouldn't think so...
But if God gave us these medicines , just like heart medications or any other needed med, am I suffering needlessly?
I have been on meds since I was about 24, I have tried being off them about 3 times since and never make it longer then 5 months.....I thought I had been off a year now but its been just now 5 months!
Each time chronic or what they term "severe" depression settles in and I have a hard time functioning on any personal level.
How do you know when life is just throwing so many curve balls that being sad is normal?
How does one know when its not?
You would think after more then a decade of dealing with this I would know but I haven't a clue?
Any ideas?
I also hope no one thinks I am some Psycho .. to the outside world I seem quite normal , whatever that means
Your Sister in Christ