Don't worry Cass. You never had me fooled at thinking you were normal
Everyone knows we psychos have to stick together!
I wish there were a simple answer to your question but, there truly isn't.
I cannot think of a single place in the Bible where it says that by being a Christian we will have an easy life. Quite the opposite actually. We will be persecuted. Not just by the world but also attacked by demons.
I knew a girl once who strictly believed the demons only ONLY attacked angels. That they could not attack a Christian unless the Christian had messed up somehow. While it is true that we can let Satan get a foot hold on us, it is also true that we are prime bait for them to go after.
I am also on antidepressants. I do not feel it is because of any spiritual attack. Though, that does not mean that it is not.
I am a biology major and have done more readings than I care to on how our bodies work. When we're sad, certain neurotransmitters are at lower levels. Antidepressants can raise those levels.
I regretfully say that I have had my fair share of spiritual warfare at this point in my life. I believe that God allowed those situations to take place to help me to begin realizing the difference between physical pains that need medication and spiritual pains that force me to depend on Him.
Essentially, what I'm saying is, I think there sometimes is a true need for medication in your life and there always is a need for us to depend on God with our EVERYTHING.
Everything is a concept that I fight with daily to give up to God's hands. But I'm learning.
Giving up everything in our lives to the Big Man in the sky is something that we as humans hate. It is us admitting we are helpless without Him. It is us being humble enough to admit we are faulted and cannot fix it all ourselves.
When my moods shifted so quickly from joy to anger or sorrow I prayed that it all would stop, and that I could be one emotion for more than a few moments. The answer I got?? My mother telling me that I had an appointment with the doctor to tell him what was going on to see if he had any insights.
I don't know if that helps any. But, I do know I have had this very same conversation many times before and I have little doubt that it is one I will have again.
Loves and hugs to you Mama Cass!