Dad 1938-2008
Posted 08-20-2008 at 10:51 AM by princessbopeep
8-10-08
I can't believe that this has happened to us. Dad is gone. He just collapsed the other day. Last Wednesday. Today we had viewed his body in a beautiful funeral home in Chinatown. The art and the structure of the inside-the decor was beautiful and peaceful, while Dad lay on a stretcher. His eyes were closed and he looked as if he was sleeping since his body was still in good condition. We cried; my mother, my brother and I grieved in our own ways. My brother said his goodbyes.
I can't believe our misfortune. Can't believe he is gone. It hurts so much.
I'm aware that the Bible mentions how Christians are supposed to go through such crap.
That's how I think. Don't ask me why, but that is how I see things. That's what's in my head. But, apparently life isn't like that, is it? On Planet Earth, there seems to always be trouble.
So I dunno. Is it really WORTH IT to be a Christian?
I keep hearing how Dad's in a better place and what not. How he's in heaven...but another part of me wonders if his spirit had become reincarnated. Poor man never got to the islands he wanted to live in. But, like they say, I suppose heaven is better than those islands.
And Dad changed is heart before he died. Late last year, he went Christian again and had been that way for months, into this year. And even on his deathbed. But there were days (when he was sick) that he'd lost his will to live and wanted to go to heaven, because of his illnesses.
My brother and I even wondered if he was gonna die soon, since he'd changed his attitudes. I suppose we were right...
I kept wanting him to spring up from that stretcher and open his eyes, but I know that wouldn't happen. He seemed so peaceful in that tranquil, Oriental, funeral area.
He will be cremated soon,and we will receive the urn, but I don't know if I could even look at that urn without grieving.
R.I.P. Dad, may you rest in peace, G.♥♥
I can't believe that this has happened to us. Dad is gone. He just collapsed the other day. Last Wednesday. Today we had viewed his body in a beautiful funeral home in Chinatown. The art and the structure of the inside-the decor was beautiful and peaceful, while Dad lay on a stretcher. His eyes were closed and he looked as if he was sleeping since his body was still in good condition. We cried; my mother, my brother and I grieved in our own ways. My brother said his goodbyes.
I can't believe our misfortune. Can't believe he is gone. It hurts so much.
I'm aware that the Bible mentions how Christians are supposed to go through such crap.
That's how I think. Don't ask me why, but that is how I see things. That's what's in my head. But, apparently life isn't like that, is it? On Planet Earth, there seems to always be trouble.
So I dunno. Is it really WORTH IT to be a Christian?
I keep hearing how Dad's in a better place and what not. How he's in heaven...but another part of me wonders if his spirit had become reincarnated. Poor man never got to the islands he wanted to live in. But, like they say, I suppose heaven is better than those islands.
And Dad changed is heart before he died. Late last year, he went Christian again and had been that way for months, into this year. And even on his deathbed. But there were days (when he was sick) that he'd lost his will to live and wanted to go to heaven, because of his illnesses.
My brother and I even wondered if he was gonna die soon, since he'd changed his attitudes. I suppose we were right...
I kept wanting him to spring up from that stretcher and open his eyes, but I know that wouldn't happen. He seemed so peaceful in that tranquil, Oriental, funeral area.
He will be cremated soon,and we will receive the urn, but I don't know if I could even look at that urn without grieving.
R.I.P. Dad, may you rest in peace, G.♥♥
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i am so sorry for your loss *hugs*
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