God will have the Victory

[Redneck-Melly]

Well this year has been a very tough year for me, lets start with my wreck.

Back in Febuary I was in a roll over car accadent, I should have been dead, but someone isn't ready to take me home, I craweled out of the truck scared the truck may catch fire, we just rolled over railroad tracks, I was with a friend. Well after I got out of the truck I relized my arm was under the truck, I was trying to pull it out and how I got it out and how I didn't feel any pain was beyond me, I relized my arm was broke and had a chunk missing, I new I needed medical attention, my friend was fine, nothing but a bruce. Well after the ambulance got there to me I was sent to the ER, had surgary, 2 plates in my arm. I still don't have 100%, I am lucky if I have 50% I am not really sure but I can't hardly do anything with my right arm, its hard to write with my write arm, but hey ya know what? I still have my write arm ...


Well the last few months I been faced with major tooth pain, I finaly found out that its my wisdom tooth, was suppose to get it pulled, but I ended up in the hospital dehidrated and doubled over in pain. Was told its endometriosis.

Through all this mess I been in I have doubted God, in the heat of pain. But after I got the pain pill in my system I relized something, I just think I was suffering, Jesus died on the cross, and suffered more then I ever could, he couldn't take a pain pill to get releaf, he could have gotten down, but he didn't because he loved us so much. I been sitting around crying and wondering what I have done to deserve this, but I am at the point were down or not SATAN WANT HAVE THIS VICTORY OVER ME! He can try to pull me down but the more he tries the tighter I cling to God...

Most anyone who knows me, knows me as a Hot headed person, if I disagree with something most everytime you and everyone else will know it. I have relised that walking away and not responding works better then arguing, because the other person is the one getting mad, and I can just pray and let God have it. I been trying to change my ways, finaly God slapped me with the truth, its not about ME ME ME, its about HIM HIM HIM. I was sent to this earth to be a missionary for God, to spread his word and to let the face everyone see, is Jesus in me.