Check-In 2

[intricatic]

Pete - I don't want you all to feel out of place, or that your peace is threatened. So long as you're all comfortable, I'm happy. Just let me know if there's anything you guys need.

[ChildofGod]

Hi all. Thought I'd check in. Things have reaaaaaaaaallly changed here.

God Bless

[Pete56]

Well the appearance has changed but the people and the fellowship is the same!

Welcome back!

P

[mbgb]

Hi everyone. I hope you are doing well this morning. I don't know if y'all noticed, butTenor's getting married today. It'd be nice if we could all say a little prayer for him that things go well, and he has a wonderful day.

I just sent Rob off to a golf tournament this morning that I'm not allowed to watch. I don't know why but he just said nobody's wives would be there. Oh well. I've never been to one before though and I wanted to go...but I guess it'll have to be another one. I did snap at him a bit this morning because he just doesn't seem to listen to me at all. I don't even know why he asks for my opinions because as soon as I give them, he just tells me something completely different he is going to do. It wasn't even anything bad, I just get so tired of him not letting me say the slightest thing without telling me not to say bad things, even though he ignores me all day and then can say whatever he wants. I don't know. No bad words were said or anything, it's just the way he answers me in a harsh tone, and it makes me react to that. And he hasn't made any effort to do anything romantic with me in a long time. It's always me. We are supposedly supposed to hang out tonight, but who knows...he left upset at me. I may or may not get to hang out with him. I just really wish we could just talk about our issues like a normal couple, instead of me having to keep my mouth shut and do my best to also be a humble, listening partner to him. I get to hear him fuss at me all the time and have to just bite my lip.

Sorry I guess I just felt like venting. I'm just getting REALLY frustrated. Because we can discuss scenarios such as this one, and things will change for about a day, then he slowly just forgets about it all and we go back to the same old stuff that he drives me crazy on. I mean, I guess he's always been that way. But I wish he could change a little. I think if he was a Christian he would want to automatically. I will just continue to pray.

Please pray for us. It is not as bad as it has been in the past, because we've learned how not to fight, but I feel like I can't really voice my own opinions and receive respect for having those opinions ever. It's just lonely and feels so hopeless.

Thanks.

love to you all, and God bless!

[mbgb]

Well,I do have to say, I was sitting here at the computer crying to myself a little. (Hey, I'm a woman, I can do that). And my wonderful, blessing of a Golden Retriever came up as he does EVERY TIME and stuck his head under my typing arm and just rested it on the desk. He's very tall for his breed, and he's like having another person here, who just loves you unconditionally. He has been so overly sweet to me so many times. I truly think he is just this little unexpected blessing of a dog. More than any other animal I've ever had, he's just sweet beyond what we could have imagined.

Just had to share that. Our pets are God's reminder that He cares, I truly believe that.

[Pete56]

MB I am sorry Rob decided to exclude you from the Golf tournament, personally I would love to have my DW walk a round with me, but it takes all sorts!

Any way folks - I am off on vacation today for a week, so I won't be around for a week!

I will be praying for us all and listening to God for us all too!

Take care of yourselves and those you love!

God bless and keep you

Pete

[cory]

MB,
Sorry things are rough. It is good not to be fighting and sometimes I know you have to suck it up to keep the peace but sometimes you also have to make the other person know they can not do certain things without cost. Sometimes if you can warn of cause and effect ahead of time then when he does 'A' and 'B' comes around to bite him then it is simple cause and effect. somelines must be held, others can be dropped.
anyway I will be praying.
Cory

[livingwithpromise]

I am not into golf myself. Besides since I get bored easy and can be set off into song at any of God's wonderful creations, I am not sure my husband's golfing friends could quite handle hearing This is My Father's World.

MGBG, I understand some of those feelings. Richard changes for short periods of time and then it is like we are back to square one.

Pondering...

I often wonder what Richard would be like with Christ in his life. He can be such a giving person and a caring person. But I also see the worry that he feels deeply each day. The incredible stress he must be under with no hope or heavenly Father to ease his heavy burden. I think "if only"...

But then remember the process of growth that I had to go through and that I am still going through. Richard will only be that strong spritual leader of our home after much growth that is led by God. I really can be a hinderance to the whole process.

[mbgb]

Thanks for the words of encouragement Pete, Cory, and LivingwithPromise.

We have talked about things a little more and even though from an outside point of view it may not seem like we are getting anywhere, but I honestly believe he loves me more and more even though the words are never spoken. He seems to actually retain what I have to say when I complain after we have a big fight now. I mean, I know things will go back to the way they were eventually, but I just need hope to carry out God's will for my life right now. And as much as I don't have an extremely clear answer, I know it is not right to divorce, so I will continue to love and honor my husband.

Some people I've heard lately have said that some people just aren't capable of loving. I just don't believe that at all. I guess loving in Earthly terms may not be possible. But I truly believe that everyone has the capability to love someone outside of themselves. It may not be many people, but there is one person who can touch everyone's life, in my opinion. I don't want to give up on my hope that Rob loves me.

I went to the church I've been visiting this morning and it made me feel better. One couple in front of me even said they recognized me from before which made me feel good. I need to get to a Sunday School class there, but I just can't seem to make myself do it yet. But I really like this church, so we'll see. I hope it becomes a home for me. I am starting to realize I really need that type of support.

Well, hope y'all are all having a wonderful Sunday! Talk to you soon!

[Jenniewren]

Hi everyone. Still praying for all of us and the site. My brother had a stroke last week. He is quite young to have one. They have also found a lot of damage from a heart attack he didn't even know he had had. He has a hole in his heart and will need a by pass before they can operate for the stroke. He is very antagonistic to Christianity even though we were all brought up as a church going family. So he knows, just doesn't want to know. I am praying that this scare will soften his heart and make him open to God